Today’s prompt: How do you find hope on a dark day?: Please write about any ways you have to find hope on a dark day.
Migraine’s are isolating and chronic migraines subject you to solitary confinement for days; sometimes weeks, even months. For those of you that don’t know why, our head throbs so bad it feels like your blood vessels will pop – moving your head a millimeter on the pillow makes it pound more. You vomit, can’t tolerate light, sound, odors and the list goes on. As a result, the best thing is to be in a cool, quite, dark room. For episodic migraineurs this isolation happens periodically and may last 3 days tops. For chronic migraineurs this can be almost everyday. I guesstimate that I spend 80% of my time in bed in the dark.
I’ve said all that to say, chronic migraine, more often than not, leads to depression. Not only are you deprived of human contact, but your levels of the happy hormone, Serotonin, are at an all time low because sunlight boosts its levels. This is of course an over simplification of why we suffer depression, because there are tons more factors, but for the sake of this post I’m sure you get the point.
Based on the aforementioned information and this article’s title, I’m sure you’ve deduced that chronic migraineurs suffer deeply dark days (no pun intended). What do I do on those days when I feel I can’t go on anymore? When I feel like giving up, not fighting anymore?
When I get to that point, my heart is so heavy that no individual, animal, outing, tv show, food…will help. What I always have to do is turn to God. I pray for holy spirit. Then I act in harmony with that prayer. I’ll go to http://www.jw.org (available in over 600 languages) – publications – online library – then I’ll type in one of the following: depression, anxiety, sadness, chronic illness…hit search and click on the link provided; then I choose the best suited topic from the host of options. If I’m able to read, I read the article looking up the cited scriptures. If I can’t, I let the computer read it for me. Most times this works.
When that doesn’t work, I play the vocal renditions of the songs on that site. Between those two options I aways feel better. I feel Jehovah comforts me via this process (Psalm 34:18). In addition to that, those articles are written with the sufferer in mind.
What do you do, when your darkest days are upon you?
“The Migraine and Headache Awareness Month Blog Challenge is organized by the:
American Headache and Migraine Association.”