Are You Your Own Worst Enemy? – MHAM Challenge: Day 11 Alternate

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Prompt: Describe your Headache or Migraine monster – what does it look like in your imagination or your dreams?

Have you ever read, “The Monster at the End of this Book”? It was one of my favourite stories when I was a child. My dad read it just about every night for me. I wouldn’t be surprised if he could still recite it today.

For those of you who haven’t read it, it’s about Grover from Sesame Street. As you’re reading, Grover is terrified because he heard there’s a monster at the end of the book and he doesn’t want to meet him. Every page you turn his urgency becomes greater as he begs you not to go to the next page. And then finally, you get to the last page and Grover is SHOCKED! The monster is him. He’s relieved and amused and so are the readers.

I wrote all that to say, “Ta Da! I’m my headache monster.”

“Why?” You may ask.

There are a number of things that I know I need to do to help myself, but out of sheer exhaustion and laziness I’m not.

When I first started to have migraines, I did everything doctors told me to do. I avoided all my triggers, took my meds, wrote in a headache diary and kept all my appointments, but I just kept getting worse and worse. So I continued on the strict diet, tried new prescriptions, wrote in my diary and kept my appointments, but I just kept getting worse and worse.

I continued that routine for another few years and then I got fed up. I was depriving myself of all the food I loved, pumping my body with prescription after prescription (that did everything but relieve my migraine symptoms), going to neurologist after neurologist, ear, nose and throat specialists, chiropractors, iridologists, naturalists, internists, nutritionists  … reading books on migraines and trying different suggestions from those who “succeeded” …

And then I stopped.

I stopped everything and just started doing what I wanted. From time to time there would be a break in this hands thrown in the air approach; but now my resolve is gone. My self-control is gone. I start but never finish. As the cliche goes, “I am my own worst [Monster]”.

I am gearing up to begin again, and I hope and pray I have the resolve to stick it out. Any suggestions?

My first line of defence will be my headache diary and a Migraine Trigger Free Diet . When I actually get everything in place I’ll blog about it.

– Skylar, the Migraine Monster 😉

For more information on this blog challenge (hosted by the American Headache & Migraine Association (AHMA)), and/or to participate see more at: MHAM Blog Challenge 2014 .




2 thoughts on “Are You Your Own Worst Enemy? – MHAM Challenge: Day 11 Alternate

  1. You are a gifted writer. I enjoy reading your blog. It is witty and positive in spite of the constant pain you experience. Keep writing, it encourages me and I do not suffer from migraines. My son suffers from treatment resistant depression, and we have run the same course you have (iridologist and neurologists, endocrinologists, gastroenterologists, psychologists, psychiatrists, chiropractors, etc.) If I could take his pain and make it my own I would. I am going to suggest that he read your blog as well.

    • Thank you! I appreciate your comment. My husband is hilarious and we always crack on my stale jokes :), so I’m happy that you find me witty. Of course all praise goes to Jehovah.

      I suffer from depression from time to time. It’s a part of chronic migraine. It’s such an empty, crippling feeling.

      I’m sorry your son has to cope with it and I know a mother feels all the pains her children suffer. I will keep you all in my prayers.

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